Sometimes I wish we could pick and choose the emotions we get to experience. Ah, but that wouldn’t be life, would it? Joy, love, passion, happiness, peacefulness, serenity, confidence. Those are some of the emotions I’d choose. Envy is one I’d leave behind. I don’t think it’s an emotion that surfaces often, but when it does it shocks me.
I was checking my Facebook page and noticed that a friend posted pictures from an African safari vacation. This was a person I had worked with at my previous corporate hustle. As I looked through his pictures I had such a sense of envy. For a few moments I let it flow through me. In those moments I wanted to trade the financial hardships of a single mom, divorcee, entrepreneur, starving artist for the luxury calling to me from those pictures.
Thankfully I limited my envy to a few choice moments and then I gave myself a mental shake. Earlier in the day I shared with a few colleagues that I planned on being financially fabulous! I went on to explain that being financially fabulous means that I will never have to wonder where my revenue is coming from, I live debt free and I will share my wealth with my family, friends and community. I even shared a story with them about how I would use my yacht as a timeshare for my family and friends.
I’m in the phase of my career where you end up paying your dues and sacrificing. There is no rule book and nothing to say that it will take me 15 years to get there. What I know to be true is that I need to position myself and my company in front of content buyers who get and want what I am selling. Some days it feels easier said than done, but in reality it’s all a state of mind. So I won’t waste my time on being envious of someone else’s dream. I will celebrate and be grateful that he got to take his dream vacation, and then I will turn my attention to continuing to manifest the life of my dreams.
*Thanks to my mom for the updated edit. I’m glad to have you in my corner to point out my typos so I can be the best that I can be. I wonder if there are any typos here. hee. Mom – I left the “will” in instead of using “could/would” because I know it’s going to happen and I will!