Passion – Bursting at the Seams

Have you ever felt like you were about to burst at your seams?  I have this feeling often. It’s overwhelming and it’s usually in response to inspirational stimuli. If I had to describe the sensation, it might be like trying to hold a lit firecracker in the palm of your hands – squeezing tightly so no smoke, sparks or explosive elements could get out. It’s not a firecracker, it is passion. Passion and inspiration.

I know that I am incredibly blessed to be in place where I have access to my passion. It hasn’t always been that way. I don’t think I felt this at all when I was working in the corporate sector. I know I felt this all the time when I was on set working on the independent film No Boundaries. This is how I know I’m doing exactly what I am supposed to be doing.

The trouble? Making the shift from being impoverished to a financially self-sufficient artist. I do believe in the words of many spiritual teachers like, Dr. Wayne W. Dyer, who speak of living in an abundant universe. One that makes abundance available to each and every one of us. To some it may seem too good to be true. Not to me. I don’t doubt that my company will be hugely successful and that I will get my chance to have a substantial acting career, all of which will provide me with a great deal of wealth.

If I didn’t believe that I wouldn’t be able to get out of bed each day and put the time and effort in. I work each day, not just for my own success, but for that of every person who has ever believed in me, given me a word of encouragement, a moment of their time, provided feedback and especially for the amazing people who have worked on our projects because they believed in our vision. When you have people lifting you up towards success, there is an obligation to do well for everyone involved.

I probably spend more days feeling like a shrinking violet than an invincible tigress, but once that tigress is on the prowl…watch out! I woke up with a fire in my belly and a desire to go out and kick major tail! I wish I could bottle this feeling because I know it won’t last. It is one of the universal truths of my life. This too shall pass. My job is to make sure I do enough to make a huge and lasting impact while on top of this peak.

A Perfect World

Sometimes my friends ask how they can find themselves or become more positive.  When that happens, I end up asking them what they would do if they had a magic pill. This pill, once taken, would allow them to wake up to a perfect world. Not a really nice or really good world, but a perfect world. The kind of world where you have no debt and never will, all of your family and friends are taken care of, you are passionate about your life, you jump out of bed thrilled to start tearing up the day, as a matter of fact you don’t even want to go to bed because life is just too perfect.

Every time I have done this, the response is the same. They start telling me stuff that would make their lives a little bit better. We don’t seem to be hardwired to think about having a perfect life. Maybe that’s because it’s not practical or maybe it’s because deep down inside we don’t believe we can have what we want. I’ll admit, it is hard to get started with this exercise. When I first contemplated it I did the same thing as my friends.

I now contemplate this question often. It allows me to have a vision for my life. According to The Law of Attraction, what you focus on is what you attract. If that’s the case I want to channel all the goodness and abundance that I can. My perfect world looks like one where there is world peace, an end to hunger and homelessness. A world where children are safe from violence, where all people are safe from violence and where we all are equal . Yeah…I know, I know…that’s Utopia. What’s wrong with that?

My perfect world also includes a beautiful home for my family (one that has been rehabbed from an existing structure and that is energy-efficient, energy producing if possible). I would travel the world – visiting one new international destination each year (for a period of no less than a month). I’d piggy back home with my family and friends who hail from Morocco, Australia, Argentina, Africa, Haiti, France and many other places so I could explore their homeland as they do, not as a tourist. I’d make sure that my travels included trips to places like New Zealand, India, Tahiti, Switzerland, Russia, Belize and many other destinations. My passport would be packed to the brim.

My job would be my passion. I would be stunned that people offered me money to do what I loved. It would inspire and motivate people to make positive changes in their lives. My family would be healthy and empowered. We would work to make a positive impact on our local and global communities. I would have deep, lasting and meaningful relationships with the people in my life. I would be humble, grateful and a life long learner. I would be more loving, less prideful, more risk taking and I would throw myself into life full speed ahead. I wouldn’t waste a second doing anything that didn’t leave this world a better place than it was when I came into it.

Finally, I’d have an amazing man in my life. He’d be mature, grounded, intelligent, handsome, love to travel and salsa dance. He’d be my kindred spirit – one who is gentle and passionate about life with an enormous capacity to love. The list could go on and on, but instead I’ll just turn to making sure I am all of those things too (thanks Marlene for that wisdom) so we’ll be able to connect when he enters my world.

I can’t travel the world right this second, but by putting it out into the Universe I believe that I have set things in motion to make that a reality. Same with every other utterance, thought or line that I write.  My life is not perfect, it may never be, but I know what I want it to look like. Knowing what I want allows me to see it and accept  it when it materializes.

I’m ready to leave behind the stuff I don’t want in exchange for the stuff that will get me one step closer to a perfect world.