The last few weeks have been full of ups and downs, with the last few days having the largest peaks and valleys. I realize that I am emotionally exhausted. When you’re physically exhausted, you rest. I’m not quite sure what you do when it’s emotional exhaustion. Maybe you give your emotions a break? Much easier said than done.
I realize that I took a lot of risks this past week. I might have been better served if I had spread them out over a few weeks, but it seems like once I got going I just didn’t stop. Like anything else, the more risks I take the better I will get at handling them. I’ve taken huge strides and I am proud of myself, but I have to find a way to release the residual effects left behind by a week of anxiety provoking events.
I had a good laugh with my friend tonight about the fact that my life isn’t boring. Nope. It really isn’t. I never know what the next day is going to bring. I might be in Philadelphia, or asked to go to New York, it could be an audition for a major motion picture like Law Abiding Citizen, or a meeting that could lead to a lucrative contract.
Over the last few years I’ve taught myself to go with the flow. I believe that if an opportunity is being presented to me than there will be the resources and ability to make it a reality. Sometimes it’s a challenge to get all the pieces to line up. This latest series of opportunities have been in areas where I have had great resistance, such as dating. It’s funny how sometimes life takes things out of your hands and takes you down an unexpected path…that is if you are willing to follow.
My goal is to get a good night’s sleep. I’m hopeful that sleep, a jog and a meditation session will be the answer to this emotional exhaustion. I think it’s time I slow it down and take a minute to take care of my mind, body and spirit.