Today I decided that instead of facing down sadness, I’d go for a run. I’m still in 5K training mode. I have 9 more races to run by the end of the year so going out for a run is nothing unusual. It is unusual for me to leave the tv off and actively decide to start my day with meditation and running. I’m really glad I did.
I was laying in bed with tears running down my face, missing my little girl (1-1/2 weeks down, 3-1/2 weeks to go). I didn’t have to get up and the 5 hours of sleep I got was nowhere near enough, but my brain would not let me rest. I’ve done quite a bit of personal development work and I know that there are healthy coping mechanisms and self-destructive ones. Today I decided that being healthy was my priority.
It’s hot today, but probably not as hot as it’s going to be during some of my races so I got outside with my iPod. I usually listen to an energy meditation podcast before I begin my run. I love Stin Hansen’s work at http://www.mythoughtcoach.com. It’s a huge comfort when I am going through challenging times. Today I listened to Affirmations for Coping with a Crisis and particularly liked the following affirmations:
- It’s perfectly alright to feel sadness and hurt, these are normal human emotions.
- As I welcome comfort and peace, it will come. I am ready for comfort and peace now.
- I make sure my sources of help are constructive.
- The friends or family members that I need most now rally around me. When they reach out, I let them in.
- I shun any destructive behaviors as a way of coping with this.
- My primary focus now is learning how to heal in the healthiest way possible.
- When it is time and when I am ready, I will transcend this. I will rise above the ashes.
- First 8 minutes (1-8) – Piece of cake. I don’t even know where the time went
- Next 8 minutes (9-16) – I’m now thinking about the fact that I’m running and it’s hot, but it’s not too hard.
- Third 8 minutes (17-24) – Whew, I went a little further today then yesterday and yay it’s time to turn around and head back!
- Fourth 8 minutes (25-32) – Holy crap! When did this get so hard??? I just want to stop but I slow down to a jogging crawl.
- Last 8 minutes (33-40) – At this point, you’ve already run 32 minutes! Just think of it like the first 8. You can’t stop NOW!